I have a bad relationship with my family, yet my husband has no family and continually contacts my family and it puts me in emotional distress.

This includes the need for friendship or any type of relationship. No help no future goals no bucket list etc. Only thing I want is time to stop.. (not suicidal) physically can't achieve that.

Hard to describe this but I mean like does anyone feel numb at times but just carries on with daily life. Like as if you don't want to do anything. You feel nothing but no point explaining to anyone knowing they won't understand as they haven't been through depression and that?

What things trigger and make your depression worse?

Just trying to figure out new things to help me with my thoughts

Lately it seems like I get more depressed in the evening. I may be having a good day all day then when the day is done it seems like depression comes creeping up on me seemingly for no reason. I was just wondering if anybody else has that problem.

I am convinced that my problems as an adult stem from the possible trauma I may have faced as a child and that my low self-esteem may be improved if I can heal from these traumas and reconnect with my inner child. The more I read about childhood development, the more I am convinced that most of our problems stem from our childhood experiences and could be eradicated if we identify and heal our childhood wounds.

I know how crazy this sounds but there must be some truth to it if most of our… read more

I retired just before 62 on disability also. I always got bullied at jobs and hated it. I have no family and few friends. I find myself staying home as much as possible, sitting in my recliner watching tv and using my phone. I have 3 rescued big dogs and 6 rescued cats, my life. I hate myself and try to keep my thoughts away from the depressive stuff. I hate the holidays and that doesn't help. I've had two types of cancer the past 2 years and a hip replacement. I feel numb. I have tried to kill… read more