Hard to describe this but I mean like does anyone feel numb at times but just carries on with daily life. Like as if you don't want to do anything. You feel nothing but no point explaining to anyone knowing they won't understand as they haven't been through depression and that?
i've been on here for a little while trying to find help and recently ive been moving between psychologists but i've just been like this since about i was 8 and when i was diagnosed officially in july ive trying to get better but it doesn't help and before i was diagnosed i knew something was wrong i honestly hated honestly being alive and alls i did when i would be at school is hide in the library listening to music and just reading but when i wasn't there i hold myself up in my room and rarely… read more
I find myself watching tv & my mind isn't really watching it & I will start crying uncontrollably for no reason. Is there a way to stop this crying so much when I don't even know why or what I'm crying about?
I read over and over about people like us crying a lot. I’ve never been able to, as far back as I can remember. It’s not that it bothers me so much . I just don’t understand it. I was just told my favorite fur baby died this morning. Not a tear. Not much feeling. In fact almost a feeling of relief , one less thing to have to care about. I can feel my mother watching me for something. I guess I’ll have to give her some kinda reaction so she’ll feel I’m grieving.
Kinda sick huh.
Weeks ago, I couldn't stop crying. Now it feels like I have hardly any tears to cry anymore. Nothing seems to matter like it used to, I don't feel the love that I used to feel for my family and my boyfriend. I don't even care if he messages me or not, whereas it used to really bother me a lot where I would have really bad anxiety attacks or panic attacks when I wouldn't hear from him in hours. I almost feel like I am a zombie just going through the motions in life, hardly no sadness or anger… read more
how long does it take to take effect? major depression is still here. i cant stand this anymore. i just want to cut so much. i have to go to the hospital but i regret calling them. i dont want to be stuck up there.
How do you do it? I just don't care about myself. I know how to care for myself. I'm asking how to care ABOUT myself.
Everything I do is for someone else or because I'm "supposed" to do it but nothing that has to do with my own wants and needs seems important enough to me to prioritize.
I know logically that I'm supposed to care about myself. Care what I eat or how healthy I am but I just...don't.
How do I change this?
Background info: I've been depressed for over 25 years, was married, and had 2kids. I have been alone for over 16 years now, and can't believe that someone would even want to be with me. For all my shortcomings, depression and lack of self esteem. My kids mean the world to me, but they are older now and moving on with their own lives. I'm scared, terrified and afraid to even want to get close to someone male. I don't want just sex, i want a relationship. One that isn't one sided, on my… read more
Is it normal to feel numb while depressed? Like, Your emotions are dull?
Last Saturday my boyfriend was invited to a family function at my uncles house. My dad is an alcoholic which he was well aware of. But my dad got drunk and fell down infront of him. He is also a vegetarian and my family eats meat and he says he didn't fit in with my family and for those reasons he wants to break up. Then he changed his mind and says he needs a few days of space away from me because I come with my family and he needs some time to think about the relationship. I am feeling so… read more