I retired just before 62 on disability also. I always got bullied at jobs and hated it. I have no family and few friends. I find myself staying home as much as possible, sitting in my recliner watching tv and using my phone. I have 3 rescued big dogs and 6 rescued cats, my life. I hate myself and try to keep my thoughts away from the depressive stuff. I hate the holidays and that doesn't help. I've had two types of cancer the past 2 years and a hip replacement. I feel numb. I have tried to kill… read more
I agree with Courage. It's the little things. Do one thing a day to make yourself feel better. Like a hot bath with some bath oils. Or paint your nails. Put on some make-up even if you don't go anywhere. Then maybe start making little runs to the grocery store, library, or coffee shop with your new made up face... and smile at people.. guess what they will smile back. It's infectious and it will give you a good feeling. It's all about baby steps.
Glenn,one very important part of my life is Shadow,my black 12 year old cocker spaniel.we are both up there in age and I take him everywhere. I rescue as much as possible. I love even the smallest critter. My AASPCA Calendar shows a little mouse called Crackers, that was saved. I take little walks when weather is good. At another time I will tell you about my Fire tablet. I love reading novels on it. Please keep your chin up and know that you are important and very special to God.
Hi Glenn I sure do understand your struggle.I had serious depression some years ago and I was convinced that unless you've been through this, you can't understand the darkness. Hopefully, trying some small steps will help give you some relief.
Lori, I hear you and maybe my story will help you
Thank you! I will try.