Lord, I know this feeling, I'd much rather stay in bed

Yes. My Mom dues a month ago, and i think of death alot. And my parents are both gone. Its soooo hard. I have no motivation yo do anything anymore for a long time. I feel in order to do anything i have to force myself.

I believe you just gave us a description of what depression is.

Sometimes, medication actually adds to the numb feeling, like protecting a person from being too depressed, and it over does it's job and makes us feel nothing. Numbness feels dead and empty, because then we can't feel anything good either. Seems to me that feeling that way for long, is an indication that a person's meds are out of whack, or not the right meds.

Me too. I have to force myself to do everything.