Remember to allow yourself to grieve. There are different stages of grieving. Will it get easier? I can say yes.... will you forget.... no! Self-blame plays a role in my life but I remember that I do not hold the blue prints to my life, only God does! Hold onto your faith!!

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you are going thru. A grief councillor may be helpful to you. I have a friend who lost her daughter, she said you never get over it, there Is a hole in her heart that can never be filled. However she honours her daughter's memory everyday, she has created a memorial in her backyard and we all support her by listening to her when she needs us. Yes of course my friend is angry, it's been 2 years and yes she is still angry, but she is making strides forward in her life. Her daughters death doesn't consume her every waking moment. Everyone grieves differently, there is no set time frame when you should "move forward" Honour your baby in your own unique way. Hugs

Would counselling help for the pain. I'm not a mother but know that the pain of a loss of a child is the worst of all. Keep your self belief/

yeah try again.. i had an abortion at one point because of my lifestyle.. and i also lost my dad to suicide the same time of year so that was really hard for a few years for me.. then i got pregnant and now i at least have 1 son.. sometimes its still lonley because other people have 2 3 4 at church and stuff where we go but were tight with each other. and we have each other..

I can relate. Perhaps no so in the immediate way, but in the long term. I am 50 yrs old and never had children but oh how I wanted to. The years have passed, two fertility doctors, 3 different men/previous relationships saying they wanted to have children with me. It's over now. I will never have children. When I see commercials with family I want to cry. When I see friends with babies or children I feel "less than". It is a mourning I do all the time, alone. Nobody notices when you don't have something and nobody understands my feeling of loss. I don't know if that helps but that is my experience. Perhaps you can try again for a baby? All the best to you <3