I talk way too much but I tried to post about something else but I ran outa room. So I thought I'd check & see if ppl had more than one story. I've been told I should write a book but I still think I talk/write too much, like I would need to "edit" but I want to be free to not worry about that yet. I need to be ABLE to talk about what's going on with me bc I don't know when I'll be able to see a therapist/psychiatrist. I know I need to go back on medication bc I know me, but I just don't know when I will be able to so I thought I could at least get things off my chest in the meantime. I have Agoraphobia & I need to be able to feel like I can even get out to see any type of doctor by taking baby steps here as I feel like I can make those baby steps move faster if I have these awesome ppl who've helped me feel like I could come back here instead of deleting my account & feeling so alone by not talking to anyone when I've gotten so far in just a few days, maybe I could do better with "an audience" like I've been able to do here. I hope I'm making sense bc I've had a lot of awesome feedback on being able to open up. Make sense?? My PTSD along with my agoraphobia that I've had for at least 20 years prolly longer but PTSD I've only had a few years but it's really been more paralyzing than agoraphobia ever has. Thoughts??

Don't know anything about agoraphobia. But I can suggest some tools. My impression is that people struggling with mental illness have a justifiable need and desire to validate themselves through understanding and sharing. Sharing is also therapeutic since it does allow us to get out.

Now sharing can be many things. We speak and ponder through art, writing, designing, and other creative endeavors. So a painter can express emotion through composition, color, designing and messaging. It figuratively 'bleeds out' the pent up feeling. I've written horror short stories, fairytales and poems. I examine my thoughts this way. We have a rich history of experiences we want to get out. A trick is finding the right means to do so. Cutting isn't a healthy way but it is therapeutic . Tattoos are common and convey messages but it still is a form of mutilation that keeps the immune system busy forever.

I had a teacher once tell our art class that artists have something to say or they create nothing but stuff. Musicians, books, gardeners, hair stylists, even tattoo designers tap into the pent up needs of the mind to vent our vision and feeling. (True, many just like the ideas but it still expresses what they like).

So if writing gets your thought out there, then do it. It's therapeutic for you and potentially helpful to others. Do what if others don't read it or read it and not comment. Anna expresses herself in the prayer group every day. It's helpful to her and helpful and inviting to others. Again, as to Agoraphobia, I am in ignorance.

lol, "secret agent therapist"!!!

No, friend, I'm chalking it all up to decades of experiences in treatment. To be completely honest, it's only been recently that my mind is now in such a place that clarity of thought is a very welcome surprise. I'm no different than any of us and if I can make the tiniest bit of difference to the good for one person a day, my head hits the pillow just right and I know someone out there knows that someone cares.

My wife gets seasonal allergies both spring and fall and she's also been asthmatic, since she was like 2, I think... She actually had to have sinus surgery once years ago and that was no picnic. Even as a former smoker, I'm surprised that, at my age (physiologically speaking!) that I don't have any respiratory or cardiac issues.

Seriously, I share what I feel and I believe I know is right in my heart. It's just suggestions based on what worked for me and though we share emotional struggles, each of us are different in body chemistry and what may work for me may not work as well for others. One of the reasons I left Facebook was due to constant harassment by armchair psychiatrists/psychologists who would continue to shoot my suggestions and opinions full of gaping holes, leaving me quite frustrated because all I do is share. I make no expectations of anyone I talk with, especially here, it's just not right.

Damn glad I could help, no charge, by the way; consider it a gift.

Now...

Look up...ceiling is pretty far right now, ain't it???

Oh, @A MyDepressionTeam Member, you and I are in the same non-stop talking boat...

Recently I'm discovering that I've been exhibiting a *LOT* of ADHD symptoms and one of those has just about always been yakking too much, be it in a poster online or talking. The need to overexplain so I'm not misunderstood has always been an issue with me; even after I find myself replaying it over in my head, wondering if I'm "too much."

I can't imagine the clotting feeling of agoraphobia, I *have* to get out every day or I'll go nuts. It does help, even if only those baby steps.

Make that first move and see a behavioral healthcare provider to determine what meds suit you.

It may feel like it takes forever to get the ball rolling, but once you do and remember how good it feels to do something for *you*, there's no stopping you.

I may be repeating myself, but you got this...

Peace and hugs 🫂 🤗 ❤️ 🧡

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Hi Kiki and all, everyone has a story, and stories can be long and full, of course!! . . There was a minister in the early 20th Century who had a psychotic break at a certain point, then found himself in a hospital bed where he looked out his window lookin' at the moon. . His name was Anton Boisen, and he became the originator of institutional chaplaincy and Clinical Pastoral Education within the U.S. . . He stated that each patient was "a living human document," like a book, I take it. . Our stories can be close to unlimited, if not unlimited period, I do believe!! . . My best peace, love, and good vibes da ya all. . Cool Cat 😺. .