My mom is gone and I really felt lost yesterday without her.

Yes I have bunches of difficulty dealing with Mother’s Day. Dealing with a lifetime of trauma makes me feel like I shouldn’t have honored my parents. I don’t go to church on that day or Father’s Day. I can’t handle all the emotions and things that are part of the services. We can’t attend church in person now anyway but those two days especially are too tough on me.

Did you ask your Mom if she didn't want to hear from you? Sometimes when we are depressed we hear what people are saying isn't really what they said or expressed in their tone of voice.

Thsnk you for your kind support. I don't talk to my siblings or my dad much. Sadly, I feel like the " black sheep" of my family

Maybe u need switch ur meds. Then feeling the way u do about ur mom doesn’t help any. Just try to get better before you try to communicate with her. Do u have other family, siblings, what about ur dad. Sweetie just put u first for now , eventually u will get better. Please try to stay healthy and strong