I have been diagnosed as bipolar one, ADD, severe clinical depression and anxiety. I have been prescribed all different types of meds at different times. My advice to you is to be your own advocate. It’s OK to listen to a doctor but it’s also OK to know whether this might seem OK or not OK for you. I know it bothers you that you seem to be on a lot of medicine, it has bothered me the same. One time I took a three month vacation from all meds. It wasn’t until the third month that I was unable to get out of bed. I took my 18 year-old advice and started back on my medicine. Although, I did get with my psychiatrist and tried less evasive medicine And have done OK

JESUS is the answer for everthing

Meditation might help. It tends to break some of the thinking cycles contributing to these disorders and is relaxing, easy and enjoyable. Twenty minutes three times a day is good. Find a quiet, comfortable, supportive sear, get comfortable so you can relax completely, then focus on your breath. Whatever focus works for you to draw your attention back to your breath. The thoughts will come. When you notice, come back to your breath focus. It’s the micro-pauses between switches that do the work. Good luck.

So sorry you are going through this... sounds so hard.