I am always angry & at times I can't stand to be with "me." I'm trying to figure out why the most simple task seem to be an effort for me.

Probably anger comes from early childhood trauma and you need to find someway to talk with a therapist. I’ve heard that app Talkspace is effective and it can be tailor made to your needs. Check it out. Good luck!

Hi Kaye! I've been there. I used to get angry (heck, sometimes I still do. I did today, actually) at my parents all the time, and I used to get mad at them for no reason. I wouldn't say I used to fake being happy, but I definitely lied when I would say "I'm fine." I'm a terrible liar, but I still didn't want my friends to worry about me anyway. I used to tell my friends "I don't wanna die. I just don't wanna exist anymore."

Living with someone with Depression is hard, and it can make a person feel like they don't matter at all. What I would do is I would get ahold of one of your friends or even a few of them, tell them how you've been feeling lately, and then have a trusted family member call a local therapist or psychiatrist. I'm not a professional, and I'm not even trained in the psychological field, but this sounds strongly like some kind of Depression. Get talking to people and find solutions. You can do it.

Kaye,, I think you definitely need to talk to your doctor or shrink about this. Your mom having depression is also affecting you, and your self esteem, etc... Please ask for help, asap, you need to do it for yourself.