I always have a fear of losing control. I think that's common with this diagnosis. Anyone else feel that way???

I'm very afraid of losing complete control I tell my family everyday that my nickname is rice Krispies cuz imma bout to snap crackle pop but they keep on messing with my mind and won't stop I actually think that they want me to snap and wind up in an insane sylem with rubber walls

So glad to see this posted! This is also my fear daily! I feel like my mind is like a blackboard and everything coul be erased! So scary!!

Oh yes. It is the fear of losing control that makes my anxiety so frightening. I am afraid of causing a scene in public.

I am. I'm angry that I allowed this to happen. Angry for putting my S.O. needs first. Ten years together & He has been in & out of jail the whole time! One year he ACTUALLY didn't get arrested! 1 out of 10!!
What's wrong with me?? I had failed at all my relationships & I took 3 years alone to try & find myself. When I met my current S.O., I decided to do everything opposite from the other's. I was honest, faithful, tried communication. I was independent, had my own place, car, money, career. He lured me in by saying what I wanted to hear. Time goes on, I found MANY "hook up" sites with his name, picture, his height, eye& hair color....everything about him! When I confronted him I was told that he didn't give them information! I'm not an idiot!! I should have left then. But I stayed & found texts messages from a girl & learned he had sex with her! I was crushed. I'm still so very angry & all this happened years ago. The rest of the time I have been left alone..A LOT! Lost cars, had to pawn jewelry to eat. Last summer I spent 93 days & nights alone in a RV, no transportation, broken water heater, hauled water in milk jugs, many day's I had no food because I had no money. My cell phone had been cut off & I had no one to count on nothing to believe in! He was in jail. Had food, power, people to talk to. So many nights I lay in bed holding my blood pressure pills, thinking I'd swallow them...all of them & never wake up.
I'm tired, lonely, sleep too much& trust no one. Always anxious, ALWAYS worried. Just too old & tired to start over again. I don't know who I am anymore.