How is everybody? Hugs to all

I'm here too. Sorry I can't help. I don't have BPD. But, I'm here if you need to talk.

I've been diagnosed with depression, anxiety & bipolar disorder for many years & my highs are high like I feel like there's nothing I can't do & I spend lots of money (that I don't have) & dance & sing in the rain & other crazy stuff & when I'm low I feel so depressed & alone that I curl up in the middle of my bed, under my blankets, with the lights off & don't want to leave my room or talk to anyone. I just want to be left alone to cry with all the crazy thoughts in my head. So I know loneliness, sadness & depression. Two years ago I overdosed on all my medications & prayed that I'd never wake up again. I just wanted it all to be over & I thought that my family would be better off without me. Luckily my youngest daughter (age 20) found me & got my husband who performed CPR while my daughter called 911. When the ambulance came I was void all signs of life. The paramedics worked on me all the way to the hospital & I woke up a week later in ICU. After intensive tests, counselling & a stay in the psych ward, I was finally able to go home. It was really hard at first to get on with life & my family was very upset with me & I didn't think my 2 daughters or my husband would ever forgive me. They didn't think I was sick, they thought I was very selfish. I still go for counselling. To this day they think I was just sad but had a good life so I should've appreciated what I had & not tried to take the easy way out. I don't think they'll ever understand that I'm bipolar. I know they love me but they desperately want me to just be normal. Unfortunately I can't do that as my brain doesn't work that way. The first time I ever felt normal was when I was in the psych ward & talked to other people in there & learned that other people felt the same way I did. They understood me & it was so therapeutic to sit down with others that actually understood what I was going through. I only hope one day my family can understand what I'm going through & not think I'm a wacko nutjob that just needs to get over it. I thank God today that I was given a 2nd chance & with the support of others like all of you here, I hope to make the most of the life I have left. The one thing I did learn is that it's always darkest just before the dawn & no matter how dark that tunnel is that you see in front of you, there is light at the end of it. Recently my oldest daughter got married & now she's expecting my first grandchild & I cry just thinking I could've missed all that. So I will persevere for myself, my family, my friends & for others like me. I hope one day mental illness will not be such a taboo subject & that we can all talk about as easily as we discuss what we're making for supper tonight. I'll keep you all in my thoughts & prayers & hope that even during your darkest days you will be able to see the slightest glimmer of hope & light because we all deserve to be here & BE HAPPY!

I was on the look out for years I'm on a combination of meds that have changed my life! I take Wellbutrin, lexapro, and rexalti plus I have very bad anxiety so I take meds for that as well

Back and forth to diabetic. doctor regular doctor and now going to one the primary doctor sent me to.I Have a fatty liver or a blocked bile duct that they are trying to figure out got to go for another ultrasound to make for sure wat is going. on I Just wondering how many times the doctors fast for tests.Or if they thing Thats easy for a diabetic Cause I get very irritated when they make me wait later than a scheduled. appointed is set up for I will try to get back to the group when I know results for sure Ty for your concern for me tho. I appreciate the love all of you show.