There's a program work through it and try to apply it in your daily life style it's called dailectil behaviour thearapy you can het it online not easy believe me but when you started apling it your life wil be better

sorry you are having problems with ptsd locating your triggers is a good start also finding distractions is another good idea i am here for you

I unfortunately never forget my nightmare when ptsd is bad if I write it down makes it worse, so I have my dog benni who knows when I had a bad night he will sit next to me and is just there for me.

I had a really hard time trying to manage my
PTSD but what I have been trying now is when I am having an episode I try to realize that I have lived that moment before and the worse part is over, the pain and feeling might definitely feel real and unbearable but I have to face them head on and the more I have control of it the less scary it will be.

Also my therapist told me to try to find what
My triggers are and try to prevent my ptsd from occurring. To write down the event that had happen in a journal afterwards and understand what happened and why it affected you the way it did. Understanding the situation can help in the long run. But don't rush or push past your limits it takes time and having a safe place is also very helpful.

Have you tried journaling? When you start having those thoughts write them down and then ask yourself what is the lie in this statement and rephrase your statement as to why. Just a suggestion. I did this with my abandonment issue with my biological father because I felt worthless and unloved by HIS actions, none of this was my fault yet we tend to believe that it is. I can not control how others act towards a situation I am only in control of how I respond. I wrote this down and then listed everything he missed out on because of his decision. I then looked for the silver lining of this misfortune.... I am loved by many people, I am a part of my children's life. I make people feel loved and wanted. Sorry I'm going on a tangent here.

I am always here if you need to talk ❤️