I have treatment resistant MDD. Take auvelity, trazadone, and go to counseling. The auvelity has finally taken the knot out of my chest (it pops up every now and then) and I can function in life. This is the longest I’ve been continuously without the knot but I don’t look forward to anything. I mean nothing can excite me.
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Yes, I've been dealing with this too. I have days or moments anyway, where I feel better and enjoy doing things but I still feel like I'm not part of the rest of the people at the same event. I'm like an alien observing the humans. I'm making a little progress and I hope it will just take more time. I am taking Wellbutrin. I can increase my dose if I want. They said all I have to do is call if I want to but I'm waiting to see if I see a pattern of falling into depression after I have episodes of chronic pain or I guess emotional situations. I'm worried that too much medication will make me feel numb. That happened before with Effexor.
Hi Tonya, yes I do too. Some days it really sucks.
What you're describing — functioning but feeling emotionally flat or unable to find joy — is actually a recognized symptom of MDD called anhedonia. It's that frustrating in-between place where you're not in crisis, but you're not really *living* either. You're definitely not alone in this.
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