Nikki I so agree with you. Our words need to be understood and heard more. We need to push ahead with all of our trials and tribulations about Depression and show what we can do together. Stand strong and hold on. My name is Katrina and I suffer from Depression!

Yes these are people who don't want to bother anyone with their problems. I have thought about it but I would never do it because of my children. I would not make them live with the burden of their father killing himself. What if they were to think he didn't love me enough to keep going. They would be asking themselves for the rest of their lives why. No, I would never do that. I am choosing to stay here and suffer. I will get better someday. I keep trying. Until then I'll stay here and suffer. My depression once caused them sadness. When I became disabled and had to give up my restaurants, I was so embarrassed that I didn't see them for a year. I cried almost every day and even ignored their texts. Finally I decided to tell them about my depression. I told them that it wasn't a good excuse for abandoning them emotionally. I still sent money and gifts. I told them that I would understand if they didn't want me back in their lives. I was very grateful that they accepted me for who I am and were eager to see me again. So yes suicide is a selfish act in my mind. Sometimes we are selfish. I am in pain every day. I can't get the medication I need because too many people overdose on opioids so pain specialists won't write oxycodone. It's hard to be in pain everyday so I understand the hopeless of suicide. I don't think they are thinking clearly and the furthest thing from their mind is hurting someone else.

Thank you Scott
I really appreciate your reply.

I think your response was perfect.