U can ask for a female doctor if u not comfort with a man doctor that what i do.

I also was abused by a grandfather and then other males that I respected and thought i could trust. They were sick not me but it caused trauma and mistrust in any male in my life. Ruined relationships and my ideas of what normal sex life would or should be for me.yes get a good therapist you feel comfortable with. again this is not you fault. You were never meant to bear this cross alone. Keep reaching out. We are all here for you.

I was molested by my father. I don't remember it, exactly but in the past had flashbacks any time I was intimate with partners and terrible nightmares that led to insomnia because I was afraid to keep facing it every night when I would go to sleep.
The flashbacks eventually stopped when I was with someone I felt safe and comfortable enough that I told him what I was going through and he was so amazingly patient and loving and gentle with me and was content to just be there with me until eventually I was the one initiating intimacy. The nightmares, they have gradually decreased in number and intensity until I no longer have them at all anymore. I've been in therapy, inpatient and outpatient, and speaking to therapists did help a great deal but being in support groups where I was able to connect with others who'd been through similar trauma I think helped even more. I helped me to not feel so alone, to accept that it wasn't some fault within myself and, more than just intellectually, come to believe that I wasn't to blame for what happened to me. Everyone deals with these kind of traumas in their own way. I know you will find your way through it and I'm here for you in any way I can be while you do so. Blessed be, my sweet sister. You are strong and beautiful, and you will get through this ❤️

Don't fret the Lord will always go before you making your journey easier and He will always soothe you in times as this
God bless you sis
Prayers coming to you 🙏

I too, was sexually abused from age 3-16 by an uncle. I feel your pain, and yet I know your pain is unique to you. I please find a therapist who specializes in sexual abuse. It helped me greatly and I believe you could benefit from it.