That sounds like anxiety along with fear of not being in control. I went through a spell where I was crying most nonstop and could barely leave my apartment. I was paranoid I know as I would wait until I thought nobody was around to take my dog out and get the mail out of the mail box.
Thank goodness I am through that stage and doing much better. I learned to be dependent on just me rather than others and also learned that I am good enough, worthy, capable and safe and lovable. It was all in learning a new mind set and believing these core beliefs about myself.

When I feel very depressed I find that I can't cry. I get so numb and feel so low that I can't even cry when I want to.

Hey Dylan, just had a thought and you just might find this helpful. I am currently doing a FutureLearn course for the second time called Understanding Anxiety, Depression and CBT which is a fantastic course and I got so much out of it the first time that I decided to do it again. It is a course from Reading University and is done through FutureLearn and their website is www.futurelearn.com and if you search for the course name you should be able to find it. This course will help you to understand more about your anxiety and give you some tools to help you control it.

I feel like that too Dylan. My anxiety hits usually after I've been out and about for a bit. I can last up to 2 hours out. After that I start getting really anxious and have an overwhelming need to get home. I've actually left a whole cart of groceries and just walked out because I had to.

Well, with my lack of time at the moment and all my exams, I've given up on the house. I asked for some help with house so that I could study, but... His version of help is to complain that I'm not doing enough and that the house is a mess.