Yes Yes Yes
Trued to drink my troubles away but led to drunken meetings and lots more - so wrong and when down get huge guilt trip and very vivid images of this vbad period

Oh i was bad when i was young. Wasnt till my 30's that i calmed it down. Husband died and that was the end of sex for years. Along comes a male friend i have known since my 20's and the furnace has been fired up ever since lol. Only thing is being older brings on a whole new set of physical problems😦

I don't believe that there is really such a person as an asexual one . . Freud theorized that human beings are basically motivated by the id (the unconscious aspect of ourselves that contains our libidinal energy and our aggressive impulses), and primarily by the pleasure principle . . we all are, of course, motivated by other things in life, as well, but I do agree with Freud's analysis of human motivation . .

You know what? Asexual is a great way to be. You use your energy for creative things.

Sexual activity just makes me more and more unhappy. I don't like it at all. I don't want to have it anymore. Nevertheless I watch pornography and masturbate on occasion but even that isn't pleasurable. I just do that to numb out the pain and that effect only lasts for a few minutes... Gosh I hate it. Probably not going to have a girlfriend or wife cause I don't want to have sexual intercourse. I have no desire for it and maybe that's cause I'm deathly unhappy but I don't care for it.