The trust issues is a hard one cause I still havent got that one down yet. The Anxity and depression ive learned to channel into something productive. I draw and paint what im feeling. I still have the nightmares sometimes from my mother hitting me and worse from my ex husband hurting me. You can get through this. Music always helps me too. Find something to get passionate about. You got this hun!!

I also have Major Depressive Disorder as well as PTSD from 9 years of childhood abuse followed by 29 yrs in an abusive marriage.

From what I understand, depression is a component of PTSD, severity naturally varies.

As for trust issues, I certainly identify. I watched my (now) best friend for years before I trusted her. I let her know me just a little at a time over many more years. I still see a threat in every person I see but now, after years of therapy and the urging of my friends, I realize that this is probably not the case.

I still struggle with both disorders. They officially disabled me. I do what I can to take care of my mental health, take my meds and keep appointments. I am working on the balance between isolation and being vulnerable to triggers.

My dad used to tell me crying was weak and so its hard for me to do so because that's just been in my brain since I was a little girl.

I was beet and burned and starved by my mother after her divorce from my father the sate stepped in and she. said she didnt want me.so of to foster care. the only people i really feel safe with are my husband and kids and thats only if im not manic. But i always feel safe with dogs and animals..

I use to have night terrors of my mom yelling and nagging at me and cutting me down, because that was how she was and what she did.