Hoping to hear from others with similar experiences. My mother used to hit me as a baby and toddler whenever I cried. I learned to stop crying and freeze. There was other stuff too. Decades later, I still only feel truly safe with animals, not people. So the trauma came before the depression.
Do you separate your PTSD symptoms from depression or is it all one big challenge? How do you deal with trust issues? Any success stories?
I too was verbally abused by my mother putting me down all the time. Ripping out my hair as a child while she brushed it. It has stuck with me for all these years. I have no self esteem, no confidence etc.
sure- ur right it does make people focus on what's important - u grow up quickly - maybe that's where u got ur old soul which isn't a bad thing at all
My husband was raised by his grandparents - his grandfather was a drill sergeant in the Army & when he lost his temper ( about 15 x on s good day ) he would yell & scream - his drill sergeant skills came through & the walls would vibrate - too many stories to tell but not a day goes by that he hasn't mentioned his childhood - some days he talks about it a lot- severe PTSD he used to have panic attacks often along with other symptoms he had taken anti - depressants for a a few years but he had side effects that he didn't like so he stopped- aside from the PTSD- what he went through as a child has not been all horrible for him - it has helped him be a very sympathetic , compassionate person- he will always help people who need it , give the shirt off his back & has patience of a saint. When he was a lot younger he had a drinking problem ( not surprising considering the circumstances ) but he know that alcohol isn't the answer & realizes that it's something he needs to steer clear of. He's got an old soul which isn't a bad thing - the older the wiser.
I also have Major Depressive Disorder as well as PTSD from 9 years of childhood abuse followed by 29 yrs in an abusive marriage.
From what I understand, depression is a component of PTSD, severity naturally varies.
As for trust issues, I certainly identify. I watched my (now) best friend for years before I trusted her. I let her know me just a little at a time over many more years. I still see a threat in every person I see but now, after years of therapy and the urging of my friends, I realize that this is probably not the case.
I still struggle with both disorders. They officially disabled me. I do what I can to take care of my mental health, take my meds and keep appointments. I am working on the balance between isolation and being vulnerable to triggers.