I feel like maybe talking it out here and/or checking in with whoever you see professionallywould be beneficial and might help give you some answeres or lead to a game plan to help you deal with the images, and maybe even stop them from reaccuring?

not for awhile but it doesnt feel like OCD

Are you getting any help for your OCD and anxiety?

no its unintenional but it may just be instinct

Do you use a coping skill to get to the numb feeling again?