While riding in a vehicle I have been experiencing negative thoughts about my past. This leaves me guilty and sad so I usually cry quietly. I don't anybody else to know I am upset or else I would probably have to explain what was going on! Music itself doesn't always work for me. Does anybody have any ideas on how to deal with this? I just want think of happy thoughts in the car but I often struggle. It doesn't have anything to do with a car accident!
For every negative thought I makke myself think of three positives until the negative ones are gone. It can take a while to think of the positive thoughts but it reprograms your mind
All I can say is that the thought of crashing into a huge truck is a sign of desperation. It was one of the first actions I thought of when my depression started to kick in. It accelerated to cutting my wrists or hanging. I never want to go back there, my car and music became my refuge when I was finally able to leave the house. Now I spend my day getting paid to drive and it’s perfect for me.
For me personally, driving (usually way to fast) with the music on as loud as it can go, any negative thoughts I have disappear. That is the only time my mind is quiet. That is my escape. Even for a short period of time. For me, it's therapy.
I drive for a living and there is no radio in my vehicle. I'm not allowed to have any electronic devices visible, so I'm left with my thoughts ALL DAY. What I do to keep the boredom out of talk to myself about any and everything moving. I sing songs that come to mind, make up my own beats with my mouth. I have a GPS in my vehicle and when it tells me to turn left in 300 yards, I say, but why 300 yards, why not 100? Just be silly with yourself. But if any of those things don't work for you, talk to your doctor about ADD. That's one of my issues I'm working on with mine. But it all starts with you letting go of the self shaming, self deprecating. Or you can just yell STOP!!! If all else fails. I wish you the best.
I understand what you are going through . Sometimes turning the music up so loud and singing along helps but other times I try to clear my head and meditate. Think of your favorite place, person, or thing. Take deep cleansing breaths.