Don’t be afraid 😊

Yes, yes , the eating part becomes such an easy way of relief. I am at a constant feeling of failure and torture myself. All I want to say to myself is “God loves me so I must pray and work hard to love myselfself too”

There was a time with myself also eating if I did eat I had to make sure no one was around to make fun of me. I was down to about 95-100 lbs that was about 37 yrs ago. Here lately doctor's keep getting on me about my weight and when I was put on Prednisone I gained over a 100 lbs in a year have not been able to get it off. Lately after one doctor got on me about eating smaller amounts and I was barely eating anything at all then finally I just said well I am going to have to do what I did before then. The nurse asked me what that was and I told her I used to be Anoeixic I was labled that in 1995 for the 2nd time. I have been able to manage it for years now after 2 years of counsling. Lately I have no appetite, food does not taste good, it doesn't smell good. I only eat a little because I am diabetic otherwise I would not eat at all. Just drink lots of fluid. Most of the time like when no one is around I won't eat. Then my husband will ask me if I ate and I have told me either yes or no if I think he will get upset I say yes. I am down 40 pounds with CHF it can come back on in nothing flat last week went up 10 pounds over night. So it just seems to me it doesn't matter what I do I will either lose weight or gain and feel even worse than I already do. When I look in the mirror and it doesn't matter what my weight is I always look bigger than what I am. I am 60 now and the fight was gone for a long time but it is back now so I have to be really careful with everything

I cannot eat anything while I’m depressed. The weight gain drinks are a good idea, however my dr told me not to stop chewing and eating solid foods. I didn’t listen. I ended up in hospital weighing 86lbs that was almost 30yrs ago. Today, I could very easily fall into the same trap. I’m trying really hard to eat. It’s not that I’m young anymore, it’s also very had for me to eat alone. I come from a large family and there was always someone home. I actually hate eating alone.

I'm having trouble eating too I've had this problem since I was 11