I really believe they do not truly understand. I don't think anyone can understand unless they have this illness. Two good wake up calls, I hope, with Kate Spayd and Anthony Bourdain. Two people who everyone thought had it all, yet the demons were inside and caught them.

I too battle with many mental illness' but am here to tell you there is hope out there. they tried me on atleast 20 pills before they found out that the combination of good old Prozac and abilify in high dosages helped pull me out of my blues. I'm not saying the worlds a bed of roses now-I still have hard times and struggles but it's really helped and given me hope for a future-a real future....and getting therapy has helped me with past abuse issues-so it may take both (meds and therapy) and a while to find the right meds but there's a rainbow after every rainstorm-just give it time

Awww hugs sweetie it's so hard and takes so much energy to get up and moving I understand completely.
All I can say is if you don't get up and do a little everyday you'll feel worse and lose even more will to live. Don't let this condition beat you, you are a string courageous women and you'll win with flying colours.

I hear you. I am 67 years and going through struggles, along with ongoing depression. Most days are difficult. I always thought that as I progressed in age life would get simpler, or easier. It does not, life is life no matter what age. I have learned to fully enjoy the good, and in darker times I try to complete one small task a day. Keep putting one foot in front of the other no matter how difficult it is. Nobody is blessed with a trouble free life. Some people are just better at masking it. Reach out to a professional when need be, and believe that you are not alone. Hugs

Roni, can I call you that? It is very hard to keep living when you feel dead inside. I have been in your shoes. It sucks. I think it's good to get all negative people out of your life. And ensure you have open conversations with your therapist and Psychiatrist about these persistant feelings. Think of depression as a "liar". It tells you things that are not true. That you are not a good Mother, daughter, a lazy person. The truth is depression robs us of the will to carry on. I am also involved with a church and God whom I cherish. God and prayer has helped me so much. I will give you my email and feel free to use it!! I worked as a counselor for those with various mental illness. My email is (Email address can only be seen by the question and answer creators) I hope to hear from you soon!! XXOO Melissa