I am terrified of grief. I have felt it in the past and it is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. Far more than any physical pain ever felt. I do not want to feel it. I do not know how to let myself feel it without wanting to die or self harm in order to move my pain elsewhere. I feel like I will grieve forever. I do not want to do that. I cannot live like that.
i saw a grief counselor for 12 wks recently due to my mum passing away and it really helped I don't know where you live but the organization which helped me was Cruse Bereavement care. Try checking around your local area for a support group of that nature with maybe free counselling or for a small fee. They will be able to help you process your grief and understand it better.
Find an EFT specialist. Look it up and read on it. It helps you relieve severe emotions/trauma out of your system.
Hello @A MyDepressionTeam Member, Everyone deals with grief differently. I suggest that you see a professional about it. Talking does help but then again some people will disagree.
Keep your head up and if you need to chat then let me know