I was given a great piece of advice.
It works!!!!!
Get into the habit of doing things regardless of how you feel, or qhat i think. go thru the motions without questioning it.
This is how i can take that shower when in my mind i don't want to do it.
I know doing this always helps. So even when i have no energy to do anything, i am a robot and go thru the motions anyway.
I don't think about it, i don't question it.
I need to eat, i eat. I need to shower, i shower.
Once you get this into a daily habit, all you are doing is moving. I praise myself for just moving.
When you learn to turn the mind off yet still ve able to function. The stress is off. No fretting, no one telling me to do things, no worries.
When i clean, i do one thing like to clean the bathroom- I'll go in and spray the shower down, then walk away, maybe I'll go in there to use the bathroom, then I'll wipe it down. Its the same thing. I'll wash one dish instead of the whole batch, then go back maybe 15 minutes later and do another. Still not questioning it.
It works!!!

Knowing me I would write in it a few days andl then I blow it off. I'm not really good at the "follow it through" part. But I have recorded myself when I have been in a ranting rage. I was hoping that would help me figure out what triggers me and sets me off. So far I have not had much luck but at least I can remember to record myself. So that's an accomplishment compared to all the things I should be accomplishing (cleaning house, cooking, grocery shopping, etc) which I am very unsuccessful at daily. It's hard enough to get out of bed, shower and change clothes. (which sounds very disgusting when I read it) I am so gross!

For me, I don't even think about food. My last relationship was very abusive, emotionally, verbally & controlling. I was in that relationship for 15 years. At some point I figured the only thing I could have complete control of was my eating. And that's exactly what I did. I stopped eating. For days, I ate nothing. Because in my thought process, I knew eventually my organs would start to shut down & I would die & finally be free. These days I eat. Not alot, but I'm not starving myself. Unfortunately I still suffer from those times. But it's all a work in progress. There are a few things that I still have issues with. But, I'm working on them. (Actually, more than a few). Abuse is tough to over come when it was a constant never ending thing. Some things are somewhat harder than others. But possible

I try to do this with my depression do something each day till I finish the task eating is hard to remember but I still gain weight from my meds which upsets me badly need to loose sixty pounds makes me so really depressed but I do try to shower every day if not no longer than two days keep that going cause I can’t stand to think I might have body orders others can smell

I find I still have the same appetite whether Im anxious or down. I probably dont enjoy food as much but I find its just a tool for me to survive when Im abit down.