i feel like everyone expects me to get cured and then when i have syptoms they think it's something new. i try to tell them that i will always be bipolar and the only way to manage is to notice my syptoms and change my meds. my doctor even seems confused as to why one treatment plan doesn't work forever

I constantly have that "roller coaster" feeling. Sometimes my mood shifts from happy to depression within an hour. I never can say how my day is going to be because it changes so many times due to circumstances and how I am feeling moment to moment. Overall, I am much more of a "glass is half empty than a glass is half full" person. I'm more on a depressed level.

Yes definitely, an endless rollercoaster, or merry go round that won't stop, like being stuck inside a wheel that just forever keeps turning, I want to to get out/off, please help me to get out/off from this infernal contraption, I'm stuck in this place of desperation, I have to handcuff myself for my own and others safety, I've even contemplated buying myself a straight jacket, I feel volatile and out of control, and can't find a way to control the rollercoaster 🙁

My life is a roll coaster ride. I can't get off. Like a trapped kid.

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