I believe our God is a loving and merciful God. I think that He knew us when He formed us in the womb, and therefore knew we would have these illnesses. I don't' think that if you are in a severe depression where you are not yourself and cannot think rationally and ponder suicide, hopefully you will seek help and continue to live and find better days but I do not believe God will send you to hell because you have a mental illness and take your life. Just my opinion and I know we all think differently. I personally trust God with my life and everything in my life. But I do know when the illness gets ahold of me I have attempted suicide and I am glad I was rescued but do not believe that God will hold that against me because Jesus came and died on the cross for our sins. Hope this isn't offensive to anyone it is just my own opinion and a reflection of my relationship with my God.

God is God and I am not. He does have a plan for each of us in our lives and already knows how it will turn out. His sense of timing isn't they same as mine and I often wonder if he has a sense of humor. Prayer is the only recourse I have sometimes to drag myself along.

I personally don't blame God. believing its just a test is what makes me wake up tomorrow even if I don't want to. I do believe that suicide is an automatic ticket to hell but that's not the reason I haven't gone through with the many times I've thought of it. my reason is the woman who adopted me when I was 11. I cant bare the thought of hurting her like that. everyone's reason to fight is different and having a reason doesn't make the pain disappear but it may give enough comfort to get through the hard days.

Good Luck

@Olga...re: 23rd psalm

I know that if there's anyone who can be trusted it's God.