I truly think most people with depression have times where they are overwhelmed by guilt.....its a battle because you know you need help, but you feel unworthy or like a burden, so you don't ask (so dont get) the help you need,get more depressed, act out some other way and cause further distress to those around you, and get down on yourself for doing that...and on it goes. In the neverending hamster wheel of my life with depression...

I am often angry at the things I just totally screwed up in my life. I feel guilty my children had to go through so much when I was so sick. I often get emotional and even a commercial can make me cry and it is all guilt over the past. I try to put the past in the past and always move forward but it isn't always easy.

And if people wants to be cruel and heartless and judge me because of my illnesses then that is their problem not mine

I think we all feel guilt at one point or another for feeling bad, which only makes it worse. We feel guilty Bc we have this ideal that we have to be a certain type of person and live up to certain standards, whether what we think society expects or what we expect of ourselves, so when we can't be that person we think we are supposed to be because of depression, health, etc we feel guilty like we are letting people and even ourselves down. I feel guilty often Bc of my son and I desperately want to be the mom that I believe I'm supposed to be and often can't Bc of my depression and health issues. It makes me feel terrible and I wonder if I'm being selfish for taking care of myself or allowing myself to do the things I need to in order to overcome those days. But then I remember that my son needs me to just be me, the best me I can possibly be and it's more important to take care of myself and take those steps to deal with my depression on bad days Bc then I am able to be the best me that I can for him. I'd rather have my son see me happy and healthy the best I can manage than to struggle with bottled up unresolved issues and depression that could in turn result in a mental breakdown or worse. So don't feel guilty Bc taking care of you is important and it's not your fault when you feel bad. Just try to find the things that help make it better and do those things for yourself so you can be the best you possible.

Definitely have felt this before. It can be extremely difficult but it's important to try and put yourself first, therapy helped me realize that. Try and respect where you are right now, and good luck!