I am a lot better than I was. I meet with my psychiatric nurse practitioner regularly. I think meds need to be constantly reviewed and changed if needed.

It definitely does not provide a magical response like I think I thought it it would.

I was recently off of my meds for several months because I was sick of being emotionless all the time. But being off of them made me extremely moody and anxious. I just started back on them last weekend. I can't seem to find any in between. I'm either tired and emotionless on meds or stressed out and anxious off of them.

My anti depressants make me flat. I guess it's better than being real depressed but not by much

I mean this, with no rudeness whatsoever, that is just not who I am. But when I read your post, this saying came to my mind.
The definition of stupidity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result
Please do not be offended by what I said. I only said it because I hope you understand that maybe you need to try a different approach or a different doctor.