I can't wait until the holidays are over

want santa to bring me joy.

I wish I could just bypass the Christmas holiday.

I've been alone for most of the celebrations and holidays over the last two decades, I just treat it as another day, someone else's celebration, not mine. I no longer do birthdays or anything else.
I've rarely fitted in with others, especially in groups. It's much easier and less stressful this way.

Feeling better than I do now and having all my family members together and sperate