Because of trauma and depression I went a little crazy when my kids were young. I partied a lot and wasn't home with them like I should have been. Since then I have gotten clean and sober. I have and still am in counseling and am working on my issues. I have talked openly to my kids as to why I was drinking and that it was never their fault. They said that the forgive me and know that I am not that dame person. But I cannot forgive myself for not being the mom that they needed when they were⦠read more
your can't.. i know it's not the answer you want to hear but that's just the way it is..
Seems our background is quite similar. Like you I apologized to my oldest for being a terrible mom. His response was that he turned out OK so don't even worry about it. Helps a bit but not much
Prayers and Love π πβ€β₯
I know how hard dealing with guilt can be. It's hard to forgive yourself sometimes. But you have to find a way. As far as your kids go, you're being the mom they need now. You're trying to make it up to them and explain yourself. There's nothing you can do about the past and the future isn't here yet, so try to focus on today.