Kaye, I will be your friend. I know what it is like to not have friends bc my depression drive them away. Now that I am better I am blessed to have a good network of friends. I still have episodes but I now know I have a support group. Let us know how we can lift you up

I only want a place of peace in my heart, rather than this slow dying.
Nothing means nothing anymore.

i never want to go to the hospital again, they actually wont let you rest they want you to get up and walk around and thats eat. no reading, no writing. only day room was open for two hours straight and that was it. i can get getting up and walking around but i dont want to do it for hours and im not good and talking and i wanted to be left alone raelly. it caused me more anxiety than anything i wanted out. so yeah i dont want that. i also dont have anyone to take care of my cat so thats not an opition anything but thanks.

I understand how you feel. I made friends in high school and then walked away from all of them because of how they gossiped about each other. I have reconnected with 1 person whom i knew from primary school first. My kindest most supportive friend i met in hospital. There are a few people that i got on well with in hospital over the years and we chat on whats app that's as far as it goes. I struggle to go and meet up with anyone. What is the hospital policy for you. Here i speak to my doc and he has me admitted, the last time I couldn't wait for the appointment so i went into casualty told them that i suffer from Chronic depression and so forth and that i wanted to kill myself. They admitted me. If you can go to hospital you could rest and maybe even make a friend or learn some coping skills. I wish I could help you. Remember this too shall pass

We are here for you. We are your friends here and you can talk to us. It has been very difficult with Covid to connect with others. Maybe volunteering somewhere will help you meet new people who are like minded