Whoa. That sounds very emotionally draining. My nephew did not see his partner for almost 3 months. Then they did social distanced dating. They have had two dates so far. They agree on a place to get take out and then sit in their cares and talk and eat. I wond if this is an option for you? He is feeling locked down too and stressed. People with no personal experience are having mental health challenges because of the lockdown and pandemic. I feel for both of you. I hope this moment moves on and you to get to talk and be together in person.