I feel so tired all of the time even though I sleep a lot. I’m on no depression medication as I don’t like how they make me feel. I have anxiety about going to doctors or even calling my friends and family. My husband does not understand. I so want to feel better.
Sometimes you have to force yourself to do stuff you would normally even though you don't want to. It's very hard but the only way to not isolate is by dragging yourself up slowly. Start out doing small things and work your way up to bigger things.
First thing you need to do is come to terms with the fact that you are struggling and THAT IT'S OKAY. People try to act like that you are supposed to be happy all the time and that's impossible and unreasonable for people to expect of you. Then you need to push yourself out of your comfort zone and reach out to people, it's a challenge that I am struggling with myself but you need to open up to let people know that you are hurting and you need love and support to get through this hard time. I would suggest your husband being the first person; ask your husband to sitdown with you and give an explanation of your depression that it's important to you that he understands that your struggling, he is your partner in life through good times and bad, also explain that you would like to have a deep discussion about this because you would love to overcome this and create happy memories with being able to move forward. Lastly again with pushing yourself out of your comfort zone, get help from the doctors they are there to make sure you are healthy (mentally and physically) discuss treatment options, some just need medication, some just need counseling others need both. I know things are hard but realize that you're worth it, what will be harder in the end? Getting out of your comfort zone to become happy or staying and doing the same knowing you will be depressed for the rest of your life.
I struggle everyday with getting out of bed, I'm a paraplegic had a accident last year and still can't walk I'm constantly online looking for hobbies that Interest me I'm always home unless I have a dr. Appointmenti do a lot of praying
Maybe attending a physical a depression support group could be some help.