Omg I do the same. Self doubt that I'm not good enough . Good luck my friend

I struggle with this question I have had 2 10yr relationships no marriage and ask myself what's wrong me and in between the first and 2 I waited 7yrs and it still didn't work I'm ok with being by myself but I do like companionship I no that I get frustrated really easy when there is a disagreement or the other person does something that is not acceptable I'm also an enabler so that makes me a target to get used and it makes me fall deeper into my depression I'm hoping I just want some happiness for once

I was like that 6 years ago when i lost my husband, it takes time to grieve and we all do it in different ways, but do not lose hope

Hi I've been married almost 14 years now, each day is a struggle. He works a lot right now and when I'm feeling better I go out. It's good to get out, sitting in the house craying for no reason is useless. I have done it several times sat and cried alone, it's not fun. Off track here hubby came home the other night and said can't I do anything right? I just looked at him and didn't know what to say, I'm very piticular about doing things. With me having disc surgery and not being able to do the house work he's had to. It's been driving me crazy, I'm not a clutter bug, plus we live on dirt roads I hate the mess!! It's hard to keep up the older I get, but I'm still doing it. Most men don't know what a woman wants out of a husband, plus he's hardly here, so I ask him why bother being married?? And I ask myself the same question. Good luck to you!