Looking for cheap professional help for anxiety, depression, self destructive tendencies, self loathing, and the list goes on....
Oh also most places have NAMI meeting groups. Its a free support group. You can see if any are in your area. They are helpful as well.
I don't know what kind of insurance you have, but online you can usually Google sliding scale therapy locations. Some places will work with you if you don't have insurance that will help cover it. I also currently use an online counselor at betterhelp. Its a little pricey, but not too bad. And they are accessible to you at most times.
Sorry. Should have wrote this first. Major issue can be brain chemistry which you need meds to help with....It can be very hard to do much if you feel very tired and this feeds into a loop of feeling tired and also I found greatly affects thinking.
It doesn't seem like much help but cheapest help would be to listen to Jordan Peterson on You Tube. He's a clinical psychologist and has a strong interest in depression as he suffered from it himself. Google him with the word depression.
I'd suggest just listen without any preconception or ideas of your own. He's a very clear speaker and the cheapest therapy available if you keep listening.
Also, developiing a small quite space in your mind by practicing simply counting 1 to 6 as you breath for 3 and hold for 3 then release with no count and repeat for 10.
it's just to get you use to being self aware of your body and also using it to be aware your in control of of your thoughts and feelings by creating a calm little moment.
If you do that just to 10 a few times a day. Like a muscle being trained it gets stronger.
I'd severe stutter that still has a pervasive effect on my life even though it's mostly not obvious but I used the same focus on and off for decades so it works.
With respect to anyone reading. Doing is hard, especially starting or gettng back to what you know works.
Wish you well