Unfortinunetly I HAVE run everyone off. Bipolar or just mood swings and OCD. Great combination. The grief on top of that and I can understand why people don't want to talk to me.

Oh wow, MichelleAnn, I could hardly believe what I was reading. I have been feeling EXACTLY like that on and off for the past few weeks. I haven't been diagnosed as bipolar - have depression with an anxiety disorder - but I feel just as though I want to rip my skin off my body in an effort to "escape". Dreadful dreadful feeling. Thinking of you as you battle your way through things.

I could have written your post. I have the same issues. I feel very irritable and aggitated at the moment. I am not fully med compliant, but I do use my Lorazepam which helps a bit with aggitation. but the family situation i just feel i am dragging my partner and kids down and ive almost left several times. Feel a bad Mum and girlfriend and dont deserve them. Family and friends have dwindled since diagnosis i have burnt too many bridges cut people off for reasons that come from a place of fear . Of course they dont get that because they have not educated themselves on the disorder. I dont want to end up alone but i can see it ending up that way if i dont get it together...Its bloody hard work isnt it !

Yes I feel like I’ll just be alone. Definitely not a relationship with a man. Lotta people think I’ve given up.
And like you I don’t like to be around my friends when I’m down because negativity is just rough on them And let’s I have a friend or two with mental disorders that me being down and out causes them to have problems. But you have to get out I know that. I jSpent six months not talking not answering my door hiding from the world. I have a friend that’s manic but she kegs a high doses of antidepressant she doesn’t take any nerve meds anxiety but she shakes and I just thinkShe would be better if she would have the relief But she said she’s had Xanax And it wasn’t a big improvement.

Hang in there it does get better