I know we're all dealing with our own battles so if your in the worst of it please don't read this.
Does anyone else ever wonder why am I still alive? Been in a depressive episode lately and that's how I've been feeling. Not suicidal but I'm just questioning what the point is anymore. Twenty years of the depression and anxiety and its tiring. I don't want to deal with anything anymore. Just wondering am I crazy?
Aw sweets we all question, it's natural n we've an auto switch as humans to question things we don't understand, it's what makes us unique.
I spent years questioning the unanswerable n all I've ever discovered that we all on this earth for a purpose. We have no idea what it is but we certainly are!!!
I have no idea why I was given all the challenges I have been but it helps me think that maybe I needed to experience it to help others in need - probably not but in some weird way it makes going thru all this crap understandable and a little more worthwhile.
Don't stay in that mode for too long thou as the darkness can become so very appealing. Suffice to say it's never worthwhile. Depression leads us to question everything at some point of another. It's those feelings of self worthlessness that does it. Try remember that it's the chemical imbalance that's doing it.
Take care n I really hope it starts to fade soon. God bless n keep you. Big hugs for u xxx
@A MyDepressionTeam Member. youre absolutely right. its the chemical imbalance.
You're not alone in the way you feel. I'm feeling the exact same way. I don't think we're crazy, just lost.
I have been similar. Its a very surreal thing. I keep wondering if some day i will think so thats why. But have to wait till the i guess
No,your definitely not crazy Kaye ,that’s what depression does and puts totally negative feelings in our heads ,finding ways to live with depression is hard but possible,good days and bad days but when your having a good day try and remind yourself,you can get out of bed and start your day as good as you can,get music on ,get dressed up,get out the house, write down your feelings before you go out and again when 6our back,hope your ok,ask for help from your GP Cx