So it has not been an easy time lately for me, I know a lot of people have a hard time around the holidays. Almost three weeks ago I self harmed for the first time in months. Im on my 'cycle' ugh, I think that has a lot to do with it because Ive binged on food like I havent in years the past two days and Im feeling a lot of shame about that. I was in control of it before this started. I bought vodka and hennessy and I dont want to get drunk just feel better for a while. I want to self harm but Im holding… read more
Kay, other than harming my self, I have been through this stage in my depression. First of all, let me tell you, you doing already better than many of us. You might wonder how,? Well, by putting the strength to make an attempt to communicate with others is a progress.
I understand what you going trough, I really do. I know is hard to get out of this cycle, I can seat here and tell you things like; you are strong, don't let that feeling win over you and so on. You know,! sugar code so unpleasant situation. But Instead, I will share this with you; We are human beings, we get adapt to a daily routine which when we don't fullfil it, we feel bad. Lets remember Traffic, weather, and the Holliday season being here, affects our daily life and as a human being we also get tired of following the same thing, over and over. I wil emphasize my point of being a human beings, we are not perfect, and though out life we learn from our imperfection. Which is what makes us perfect being the amazing people we are.
At times like this, when I feel like harming my self and that I can't lift my head up straigh, I say; "I would be a fool to try to swim against the river, I will be better of by going with the river flow. I will get farther"
What I am trying to say is that many times our anxiety of being depressed only grows even more, when we seat down and see how many things we haven't accomplish from our to do list. You already know you are depressed, which is a good thing. Now, you can plan to slowly get back in your feet. Strive for progress not perfection. Let yourself sleep it of, but do it consius that you are doing it because you want to, an also you need a brake from society, and not because depression is making you.
You are a value team member of this group, most important a value player in this world. Just like a physical scar takes time to heal, so does the internal scars. Continue to strive for progress. Like the Spanish son says; " Despasito, paso a pasito "
I wish you austerity.
Great perspective!!! Don't measure our successes/failures by the messed up value systems that have been programmed into our psyche. You know who you are, where you've been, and where you want to go. As Marking says, we are humans not machines, and each with their own hopes fears and dreams. Be a little kinder to yourself and, although routine is beneficial in a lot of ways, don't let yourself become a slave to it. So what if you take a break from it for a while, it's something that can be started again tomorrow, or whenever. The routine should be their to serve you, not to make you it's slave. Returning to the being human topic. We need to be able to embrace, and maybe even celebrate our imperfections/mistakes, and ignore any notions that we may have of such which are based on messed up societal value systems. I know it's difficult, but the more we can learn to laugh at ourselves, the more laughter we will have in our lives. Remember one step backwards, followed by two steps forward still puts you ahead of where you started :)
@A MyDepressionTeam Member Love, love your comment!
@A MyDepressionTeam Member Thank you::)