Welbutrin gave me more energy, although that was still relative.

I once had that moment I think you are talking about. It lasted a few minutes. I felt happy.... I felt joy.... It felt pleasant and fulfilling and satisfying. I felt at peace and filled with delight. It was unbelievable, and when it was over i cried a little because i realized thats how i could be feeling if i didnt have depression. My psychiatrist said it happens to healthy people about 2 or 3 times a day. Wow.!

He said that in that moment, my meds and brain chemistry and my body and the weather and the air and everything just lined up perfectly. He said it was a sign that I was slowly getting better.

When I was deep in my depressive state I turned to exercise, running, I ran, I even ran a marathon or two, the feeling I got from that was out of this world,Not only did I beat depression, I did something for myself, that I thought I'd never ever do, I found it very hard to go outside let alone run,I used to use every trick in the book, to stay indoors,..

Bless you be kind to yourself,you been to hell and back by the sound of it ,healing takes time with all the trauma ,you have experienced xx❤️❤️

I'm so glad you feel better, a hug! X

Thank you for your story. That makes me feel better.