If this is triggering to you, my apologies. I know how that feels. Just asking to gain an understanding for my own healing about if this is a common thread for many of us here.
Hi @A MyDepressionTeam Member my dad used to get drunk, he used to own a pub, wen he came home, he would batter my mum, rape & ridicule her, I used to try to stop ✋ him by jumping on top of him, shouting leave my mum alone.
Then after he'd finished with my mum, id get battered next, & I was only a wee kid too. Thinkin I could save my mum.
So yeah, I grew up in a violent family atmosphere. No wonder my mum went & killed herself, she had to get out & away from him, tried running away several times, but she allways went back untill she had enough, so went & killed herself!! Hope that helps you. Mx
The physical abuse was considered normal in the 1970s. My father would hit me with his belt on the bottom. It didn't happen a lot but I grew up hating him for it. It stopped when I was 11 and told him I was too old to be hit and would tell my teacher. My mother used to smack me on the bum and legs when she was mad.
The worst was emotional abuse. By the time I was 29 I had no self esteem, I felt like there was something wrong with me. My parents went to Aussi for a holiday and I sat home crying for 3 days unable to get out of bed. I realised if I didn't get help that day, I wasn't going back to my job. I found a counsellor that had a cancellation and with help was eventually able to move out of my parents house. The counsellor told me that I was not wierd and anybody who lived in a controlling, emotional abusive family would be extremely depressed also.
I now have absolutely nothing to do with my family, they trigger strong suicidal impulses. But their legacy lives on in my head.
My mother was beat by my father when i was a child, we all suffered as well, up till i was 5, but she finally left him
Wow, this really is a common thread here. We all felt like we had to protect a parent, usually mom, when we were too young and vulnerable to be in that type of position. Just horrible. Kids are supposed to be protected, not the other way around. Really angers me. @A MyDepressionTeam Member, I'm so sorry about your mom. Sending love and prayers of peace to everyone.