How do you find the courage or strength to forgive yourself for hurting someone you love when you feel you can't forgive yourself?
Sadly we always hurt the ones we love. I feel guilty but it's overwhelming to release my pain and hurt. Or it will eat me up inside. Long ago I would hold it in. It would build up and I would have a major blow out. Breakdown. Not no more, everything that I need to say or do and release I let it go. And oh well that's what I am. Lol
After 15 yrs it still pains me everytime I think of my ex hubby. Luckily we still speak and love each other. I felt like I ruined everything, but I wasn't in my marriage alone.
I've hurt a lot of women...unintentionally. What I do is I move on. It still lays deep in my soul and I twitch when I think about what I could have done other than what I've done but I move on. I never forget them but I roll on and live my life.
For me forgiveness is not an event- it's a process. Depends on what my part was. Tell myself that I did the best I couldn't with the information I had at the time. Some days I'm ok with that, other times I have to cry about it or get mad about it- all withthe purpose of healing and learning ❤️