Sometimes I feel
Like the little one looking in the window and I’m looking in at my “life”. My soul loves but my mind is a foggy mess with a leave me alone attitude

I too feel numb. I am emotionless. I'm living but really not. Feel lifeless

I have experienced the emotionless existance. Unfortunately it was long before the depression set in. As a firefighter/emt for several years i was witness to many things i dont wish to relive. My wife who was working on her PhD in psychology said that i was suffering from PTSD. Then after her sudden death on January of 2017 the depression jumped on the band wagon. Now i feel Nothing, i dont laugh, i cry over nothing. I dont know what to do anymore.

I'm going to research "depersonalization" because that describes me perfectly. My profile picture is with my daughter but when with the smile, I still don't think I feel anything.

My emotions are non existent. This with depression Anxiety and PTSD. I can see how this is helping me to recover. It shields me from things that trigger past experiences. I have accepted this and bide my time till I am whole again.