I lost all my two friends from University because of my depression - they called me and asked the worst question possible - "How are you?" And I started to cry and never heard from them ever again. My younger sister told me to stop talking about killing myself and just go ahead and do it. My older sister (the one who always told me to snap out of it) emailed me in January and told me to stop "playing the suicide card" and to just get a life. So you are not alone.

Yeah i had a close friend for 25 years. I had a back injury at work 3 years ago next month. Was told by surgeon all i need was minor surgery and i would be back at work in 7 weeks. The insurance company refused to pay it . I have a great lawyer and being in constant pain tey kept sending me to there Dr's and my lawyer kept sending me to his Dr's they were also following me. After another 8 months my lawyer went to the medical panel and they ordered insurance company to pay. After all that time i had gotten alot worse. What was going to be minor surgery turned out to be major surgery. I ended up having 2 fusions. The surgeon said i was lucky i got there when i d as the 2 bulging discs had ruptured and my sciatic nerve was squashed. I can't do much anymore and still in alot of pain always will be. I also have rheumatoid which i have had for 15 years so i am pretty much stuffed. 2 months ago i received a text from my life long friend that she can't stand to be around negative people. Wow that really gutted me now i stay to myself as i don't want to burden anyone and get another response from other people. I have 2 beautiful dogs that's all i need. They don't judge me and love me unconditionally.

@A MyDepressionTeam Member Not shame exactly, but I've had some attitude from my mother because even though she says she believes that I suffer from depression I don't think she takes it very seriously. My psychologist does take it very seriously, and anything you say to a mental health care professional is completely confidential. Have you thought about seeing someone like that? It took me a really long time to go to a psychologist - I've had what they call reactive depression for most of my life - but even though they're paid, they do care and it's such a relief not to feel like you have to unload to family or friends.

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Yes the more I open up about it the less people I have in my life in the last six months i ve been called weak, bitch, are you a man my favorite by the way, a child , and flat out laughed at by so called friends and family, strangers if i talk myself into going outside don't know what to make of me either
must be written all over my face

Yes, I go through the same stuff. I'm always there for others but when I need them, they tell me not to let everything bother me. Eventually they treat me like I don't even matter & they up & leave me. Everyone else is important. I'm not important.