Everyday I pray for God to take me and every night I am still here. So each day, I ask again. I believe in God and in God's eye's, suicide is a sin. But is it still considered a sin if you suffer from a mental illness? A doctor asked me if I was suicidal and I told him I wanted to die everyday. But because I believe in God, and it's a sin, I already feel as though I live in hell. Why would I want to live there for eternity.
I am not a religious person, but an aunt who is spiritual always said, life is full of tests and if you fall down try again. If you take your own life you will have to come back and re-live the same thing over and over again until you move past it.
oh btw each of my attempts had consequences to them including loosing friends, jail time, hospitalization, homelessness, etc. So consider that before thinking its ok. God has a time for you to leave this earth and you will not choose that, And before you think I just didnt know how to properly kill myself I put a gun to my head and pulled the trigger and the gun went off yet I still survived.
Perhaps you should look to the Bible and learn the truth. Suicide is a sin but not unforgivable. Look to the Lord for comfort and help and a reason to live. Battling mental illness is not an easy road but we can glorify God with our struggle. And if He hasnt taken you yet then there is still purpose for you here. Also know that an attempt does not mean you will succeed I have failed attempts 7 times because God is not currently wanting me in heaven but here on earth to glorify Him. And no I dont see the logic but then I am not God and His ways are much higher than mine.
medication isn't the answer for me. I also have past issues that are buried. Very buried. I remember the things that have happened in my life always. But I am not willing to speak to someone about it because I never want to have to relive those times again. I am and have been almost all of my life emotionally shut down. I can usually control feelings and emotions. I shut them on and off as needed. Ocassionally there is a trigger and I accidently let it slip by. But after all theses years, to not feel things has worked for me. People closest to me think they know me. they have no clue that I have become so good at letting them believe what they needed to believe and feel, I could have won an award 10 times over. I have God. He is why I'm still here and I know he has his reasons. Because in the end, when it is all said and done, God will have prepared his best warriors for the battles in the end times. Of course, I will be honored if I am chosen as one of Gods warriors.
What if one was on all the medication before and you keep on relapsing what to one do 😭😟I guess there's no answers or options anymore....im lonely and miserable suicidal and believe me im doing everything I can not to do something stupid there's 2 more options left for me its lituim or ect.....