I've been suicidal for over a year now and while I know I'm not going to run in front of a train tomorrow, it's always on my mind as the easiest way to deal with things.
I've recently been diagnosed with ptsd, have been on anti depressants for over a year and have major anxiety.
yes i have dealt with those thoughts when I was younger and for some reason this past year.. am on new meds since last fall but the thoughts still come .. I hate it.. I would never really intentionally do anything I don t think but I do wonder if these are warnings of something tragic to come or sudden.. who knows??I have three grown kids and 4 grandchildren I would never want to cause them pain even though I do suffer from this manic depression.. diagnosed at !6...I am 62 now and things i don t want to think about or remember resuface... journaling helps and a daily journal of what I am grateful for
Yeah I'm currently in the first stages of counselling, but at the moment it's every 3 weeks. And it's cbt for my ptsd, which isn't really covering my anxiety, suicidal thoughts or self harm.
I know how you feel I get a little like that and you know you wont do anything its just thoughs thoughts that just dont stop. Can you get counselling or talk with a friend or someone.? Even on a help line? Read lots of books on the subject (some books have helpful tips), , I hope you are Ok.
I made a firm promise to God that I will NEVER do it, I don't want to go to hell. I think about it a lot but He is the reason I am still alive. Who knows if we do go ahead and do it, what may be awaiting us for eternity may be terribly worse than the pain we have now, and there will be no turning back, ever.