I admitted myself once and it wasn't helpful to me.There were to many young teens that were forced to be there and they didn't care about the help,just played around and the faculty made you go to groups and talk about your problems even though it was to help you I just wanted to stay in my room.Ive really been thinking about admitting myself again but I'm afraid it will just be a waste of time again.

Yes I know the feeling my sexual abuse seems to haunt me to the soul.I haven't yet found a good man for myself.They are physically abusive or emotionally abusive.I want to just throw my hands up and stop trying but that is what I want more than anything in this world is true love.I am a the oldest of 6 and I'm the only one that is still single.I have so much love to give and I can't seem to hold on to a man.I can't take rejection very well either,I think that's what gets to me the most.I have begged and I know a nobody should do that but I don't want to be left alone.Loneliness drives me crazy but at the same time I don't want to be around anybody when I hurt.

From the age of 4 till 13 I was sexually abused by my grandad rushed into marriage at 17 then had 12 years of sexuall and physical abuse plus my two wonderful kids at the age of 55 I had two years of counciling ata rap and sexual abuse centre it help me no end but the last few years I've slipped back think I need more counciling xx

If by "intensive" you mean totally committed on a daily basis to chip away at your depression, you can actually follow a self help method from home. I followed the physiological way out and it took me a year to leave it all behind me. I haven't relapsed since then and it's been 2 years. I describe my experience and what helped me in my book "Depression Blueprint". It's free to download on Amazon but only May 4 - May 8: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06ZXVMXWK

IOP is an excellent way to work on yourself when you are depressed or anxious. Be open in your sessions whether it's one on one or in a group. A cognitive therapist worked wonders for me.