That's just what I've thought and said, too. A friend of mine was like "I think you're addicted to being depressed" and I was like Excuse me do you think I really enjoy that? Really? Cause Im not, Ive just been like this for so long I cant remember what or who I was without it.

There are different types of depression. There is clinical depression, there's situational depression and then there's just being sad where people think that that's what depression because they have no clue as to what it really is. Personally. I've never met anyone that wants to be depressed. That's insane. There are so many people who just don't get it and never will We just have to keep fighting for our wellness and surrounding ourselves with people who do get it. Sometimes that's a hard thing to do but coming to sites like this is a step in the right direction.

It's like if I feel things are looking up, I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Don't want to get excited about anything, because I don't want to be so disappointed again. Can't take it anymore. So I avoid feeling to good about things. Making any sense?

@A MyDepressionTeam Member, who exactly are you saying is trolling ? maybe you can see some answers that i can't, but none of the answers that i have read seem like trolling to me, they all seem to be very genuine and honest. maybe you are misunderstanding what some of us have said, we are not saying that we "like" being depressed or that we want to "stay" depressed just that after living with it for so long some of us get to a point where we have become so used to feeling this way and are scared of getting "better" because we know who we are when we are depressed but we don't feel that we would know who we are if we weren't depressed or how to BE without our depression.

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Honestly I can say I think yes it's not that I want to be depressed but I've been depressed so long I don't know how not to be depressed.