Don't give in to the negative voices that speak lies to you. You are valuable and unique and have many things to do in this life. You can help others for a start. I find too much time alone, going through crisis and not feeling supported, not feeling loved can trigger these horrible thoughts. I allowed these voices/thoughts to take over and engulf me in 2014 and nearly ended my life. The words are simply not true and my journey is finding who I am, getting to know my worth and that I don't need others' approval or love to live.

I just spent a family Christmas which depressed me as everybody was playing out their games and there was nothing real or warm or loving at all. This has brought me down, but what it meant was I my "expectations" of harmony, love and warmth was unrealistic. People don't change at Christmas time when they are self-centred the remainder of the year! Silly me! I am an idealist and get hurt and disappointed when people aren't like me, don't have the same compassion and sensitivity, but that's my journey tough as it is. These people were pretending to be happy, most of them aren't at all.

Only we can create our own happiness through getting to know ourselves, doing what we love to do to fill our soul and/or ask God/Higher Power for that love.

If I had succeeded to end my life in 2014 I would've devestated my daughter's life and deeply hurt my family and other people who forget to show me they actually DO love me. I think now that my expectations of my family/friends making me happy is unreasonable. Only me validating and valuing me can fill this hole. I do pray and my new habit of being THANKFUL for the basics of life eg. a comfortable bed to sleep on and a roof over my head puts my thoughts into a positive state. I'm doing it for ME. Don't let the negative voices convince you to give up!

I have felt that way before but I believe we are not meant to determine when we die...you have strengths and awesome traits, that even if you don't see them right now, they are there. You are special and important in this world. Just remember we all feel like that sometimes and that's okay but don't act on those negative thoughts. Vent here, talk to us and try to find some good things in life and about yourself. I wish I had wonderful answers and help I could give you but all I know is you deserve to have a good life. Take care.

It's funny because me and my daughter were just talking about that this morning. Sad to say that people take advantage of nice people with kind hearts

Without my meds I thought about it daily,its hard to accept you need depression pills forever! You need to find a meaning or purpose in life, take small steps& stay strong!! It will get better you have to work at it, the pills aren't magic! Volunteering some where to help the less unfortunate,acts of kindness or do anything that keeps your mind busy!

I, myself, put on a fake smile every day just to make it. I think that is my own therapy. I have heard that some of the happiest people in the world or some of the most miserable and depressed people around. I really wish we didn't have these feelings