I am like that. I have done so much in my life on impulse. Its taken years to accept that there might be something wrong with that but even in knowing that I went and quit my job last week and I am embarking on some education journey towards a career I know virtually nothing about. In the moment it makes me feel great but afterwards I am still left empty and angry with myself because I feel I am going nowhere. You're not alone.

I relate to that 100 pc . It's hard because you never really enjoy work and it's even harder finding something that you like xx

I know i have been in over 50 jobs in 15 years. dont know what to do

Go for it. You have to do what is best for you

And people tell us just to cheer up. If only it was that simple. Oh well, I'll keep going and if change keeps coming, I'm going to have to roll with punches, so to speak.
Dave