Sounds like a breakdown with suicidal tendencies to go wild without thinking. For instance, the feeling can stem from dui, and crashes into another car. You may conflate pain and pleasure, but what about the people around you and/or result of those actions.

Yes I accidentally burnt my arm in the oven then would burn occasionally I finally stopped after a few months think I was in a mentally bad place and it somehow helped me once I was back in a good place I never done it again it's weird would never want to do again as my arms had a few burn marks and looked awful

No ..no disrespect but I just don't get that...I hurt enough just from daily crap

Never ❤️

It's messed up, I know! Physically, it hurts like Hell. I was just too scared to self-injure again and was delighted for this to happen. An excuse I could use.